It's day 2 I think of a whole new world for me. It might be day 3, but I honestly don't remember. I have been fighting a cold, a sinus infection, and a pulled back for what feels like weeks now, which has made me short on sleep, which combined together makes me stupider than the average bear.
But I think it's day 2 of being masterless, adrift without a caretaker, without a security blanket, dependent upon myself and my own good judgement (ha!) to navigate this river that is my journey into hypnosis and pleasure. So many destinations beckon, so many disciplines and the natives unto, waving me over as I drift by.
And I'm so excited to try all I can, but every wary of potential danger, because I know I am still prey. I'm lucky in that the friends that I made right from the start can be trusted, so I have resources for reliable information. I am fighting hard the self-destructive tendency to jump into anything just to see what happens. Oh, but it's tempting! Only the knowledge that on the internet, you never know for sure exactly who or what you're dealing with keeps me from doing so.
Tonight I have my first ever chance to be actually entranced by a live voice, albeit via Skype. I'm quite insecure about it, but only because I don't like the way I look on web-cam and don't want to disappoint. Ah, well, I have a feeling any insecurities will be blown right out of my mind fairly quickly. But there's a post in it, I promise you!